man. i stink at going to bed at a decent hour. it's 2:24 am. i did have to babysit until late tonight. i have footage from today. i could try to put together a video and not go to bed for a while longer. none of the footage is uploaded yet. i have to be at the nursing home at 9:00. i need to go to bed soon. i don't have time to put together my own video tonight.
my grandma sent me the above video in an email the other day. this is my joy for today. :)
mmm! today was lovely. i spent most of it in bed trying to rest up for the haiti benefit show tomorrow night, but around 4, i drove to my guitar teacher's house and dropped off some chord charts bc she is playing w/ me tomorrow night!
i had planned to drive straight back home and hop right back in bed, but along the way, i was struck with this spontaneous urge to pull over, park the car, sit in it while the rain hit the windows, and just write for a while.
so i did. oh my goodness - so much joy!!
i poured out the thoughts and dreams and emotions whirring through my head about life and love and blessings and friendships and all sorts of things like that, i listened to a country cd i recently got from a friend (thank you - you know who you are), i watched the rush-hour traffic seep from parking garages into city streets and finally onto the highways like little ants parading toward a mecca or amazing feast or something big and important like that, and then i just sat for a while. i watched fatraindrops spatter on my windshield and i talked to God and i smiled for no reason at all (and then i got cold and decided it was time to go home)... it was a marvelous little afternoon.
- waking up and having dad here in the nash - his precious efforts to take care of me -mango vanilla soy creamy from trader joe's -calls and texts from a few sweet friends -sweet shannon dropping off an entire case of chick flicks for me -the fact that vandy almost beat kentucky (ranked #2) in bball this afternoon (final score: 56-58... SO CLOSE!) -playing scrabble and hanging out with jim - the beautiful weather in nashville -having a bed to cozy up in all day
in a certain sense, the only reason i ever got to nashville in the first place was because of whitney.
whitney is one of my 26 cousins on my dad's side. she grew up in california, i grew up in wyoming, and we always said we wanted to go to college together, so when she headed off to vanderbilt and found it to be a perfect fit (she's a year older than me), i knew i at least had to apply.
so i did.
and then i was wait-listed. and then i decided that that was just fine and that i would go down and study musical theatre at TCU. i went to visit TCU and got all squared away w/ a roommate and everything and was PUMPED to go there. and then at the beginning of june, i got a call saying that vanderbilt had a place for me, after all, and would i please like to accept it?!
at this point, i had never visited vanderbilt or nashville or tennessee or any part of the south (except for texas) in my entire life and there was not time to visit before the admissions office needed my reply. so what did i do?! i called my whitwhit.
and long story short, because of her (slash ... actually because there is an amazing, awesome, incredible, divinely-orchestrated plan for every single person in this whole, humongous, massive crazy world... boggles my mind) i came to the nash.
so today i'm joyful because whitney was born. it is clear to me, in so many ways, that she has been a significant part of my unfolding plan.
12:16 am tonight was so blessed! i cannot wait to share w/ you all! finishing the video right now... will post it asap. :)
ps: i've had lots of people ask for a list of all the songs/artists in each video so... here ya go! purchase the music and support all these writers/artists!
song title/ artist 1. try/asher brook (fame soundtrack) 2. the way i am / ingrid michaelson - check this girl out. genuine. real. love her. 3. if i'll ever / adie 4. jesse hold on / bwitched - i'm not afraid to say that i still love this group. 5. let's hear it for the boy / footloose soundtrack 6. dream kitchen / hans zimmer (the holiday soundtrack) - love that movie! 7. say / john mayer 8. gotta be / des'ree - think i listened to this song 200 times this summer 9. everybody, everybody / blackbox 10. second star to the right / jesse mccartney 11. you belong with me / taytay 12. all i need / shawn mcdonald 13. sleep / meg murray (oh i so want to record a cd! i'll let you know when i do!) 14. i go blind / hootie and the blowfish 15. legacy / nichole nordeman - beauuutiful song! 16. orange sky - alexi murdoch 17. that's where you take me / britney spears 18. we'll find it / sister hazel (wedding planner soundtrack) 19. separate vacations / hans zimmer (the holiday sountrack) 20. if my heart had wings / faith hill 21. someday we'll know / mandy moore (a walk to remember soundtrack) 22. the way i feel / matt wertz 23. center / charlie hall 24. free to be me / francesca battistelli 25. piano song #1 / meg murray 26. shining star / earth wind & fire - love this group 27. new soul / yael naim 28. love story / tay 29. maybe / ingrid michaelson 30. whole new world / aladdin 31. piano song #2 / meg murray 32. fight / ronnie freeman - this song makes me wanna be a professional, really graceful, really good (i guess professionals are those things...) ballet dancer. just sayin.
today i talked to my little sister kelley for an hour. twas so great. kelley is my second-youngest sister (i have three) and she is doing a foreign exchange in chile this year. thank goodness for skype.
also today, i a) ran seven miles (amanda vick - i would not have made it without you. you crack me up. thanks). half marathon #1/2010 is one month from today! b) shaved my legs c) took a nap d) played scrabble online.
what does JOY mean to you? joy to me does not mean being happy or excited or a big ball of laughter all the time. it does not mean having a stress-free, problem-free life with an abundance of people who necessarily get you. and it does not mean getting or having everything you want.
what it does mean to me is having an abiding inner contentment that -even in the face of hardship- is totally incorruptible because you know everything is going to be ok. it's having the perspective that, even in a world that is overwhelmed by pain and suffering, there is still beauty - if you take the time to look - and a whole lot of grace. and it's appreciating the little things and trying to send up a quick "thank you" to whoever made them all possible, as much as you can.
today, i went to cvs and bought a new pack of my favorite type of pens before work. somehow, writing with these pens just makes my day a little bit better.
yesterday (tuesday) was a whirlwind of a day. i did music at the nursing home in the morning, (i played lots of my own songs, a handful of patriotic ones and hymns, and then a) got requests for some billy joel and elton john for next week and b) was asked on a lunch date by a precious lady from assisted living who wears purple and green sweaters with matching pants and frequently has red lipstick on both her lips and her teeth. :) ) babysat all afternoon, (reference joy #25) played haiti benefit concert numero dos in the evening, (explanation below) and then blogged (and made the video and such) late into the night (and finally crashed around 3:30 am).
today, i enjoyed a lovely lunch with my dear friend, kathryn, (lemongrass chicken egg rolls from trader joe's; total yum) watched this week's episode of the bachelor on hulu, (which... funny story... i originally thought was "zulu," but when i went to zulu.com, i did not find any tv episodes. i called my roommate and said "jenn, i dont think this zulu thing works on my computer") worked at the restaurant, (and only made one thing of guacamole tonight! ...that never happens) and now, i am doing my bliggity blog.
tomorrow i'm waking up at 5:30 (yikes. it's already 12:49 am) to babysit. it's william though, so... totally worth it.
anyway, (hey - for those of you who read these, btw, thanks for putting up with my totally stream-of-consciousness, just-like-i-talk kind of writing) yesterday's haiti benefit was such. a. ball! we had both more people and raised more money than in the first week, so...yay! also, christine sang three of her own songs last night, and we decided to turn off all the big lights during the show, so it was extra magical-ly. (magical-ly just sounds better than magical to me). i cannot wait to see how these shows progress and evolve throughout the spring. eeeee!!
my joy for today is coming home after work and seeing the sign that william put on my door before the show last night. when i was babysitting yesterday, i'd asked him if he wanted to make a "welcome" sign and he was like... "i could do that." hahaha. i got him some paper and a box of markers and watched him pull out the only sharpie and proceed to ferociously write "ARE YOU READY TO ROCK?!?!" ha. i love that kid.
if i had made the sign, it probably would have said "welcome!" in bubbly letters, and then be dotted with flowers and stars and other doodly things.
words cannot express the sheer hilariousness of the kid i babysat today. ('tis the same kid who's the genius behind the peppermint marshmallow clouds from joy #22, for those who are interested). he can keep me entertained and laughing for hours. joy joy joy joy joy! joy joy
today was one of those days where i was reminded that i still have a lot to learn. have you ever had those days?
i love 'em. they're humbling and refreshing and thought-provoking and... while i'm not sure that "joyful" is the best way to describe my feeling after the conversation that made me feel this way, i was definitely really grateful and just like... man! made me think.
anyway... onto less philosophical things: today, i pronounced "tuesday" as "tuesDAY." jenn and i laughed for a long time.
1. i woke up to a goodbye hug from marion. 2. i was ON TIME for my guitar lesson this morning. 3. my guitar teacher was wearing hot pink cowboy boots. 4. the new issue of HERnashville is out. 5. it's only 12:28 pm! 6. i'm sitting next to the cutest little mama and baby as i type this.
i'm a list kind of girl. and at the beginning of this year, one of the things i wrote on my list of goals for 2010 was to play a real, live, scheduled show (at a particular place and with the particular purpose of sharing my music).
a few weeks ago, i was scrolling through some articles and images of all the devastation in haiti. i was so, so moved and decided that i didn't want to wait to play with a full band or at one of the particular venues i had in mind, but that instead ... i'd just start exactly where i am and with what i have today, and host a series of house shows/haiti benefit concerts every week throughout the spring right at my own place.
last night was the first one, and it was such a success! i had so much fun and it was such a joy to get to share what i am most passionate about with a group of amazing, encouraging friends, all for a greater cause. to me, that is the best kind of joy: getting to do something you love and having it simultaneously benefit someone else. ...ya know?!
i am so grateful for how all these little shows have come together and i am super thankful for the opportunity to keep playing them throughout the spring.
xo and joy :) meg
ps: if you are interested in donating to haiti relief efforts, check out http://www.vermonthaitiproject.org/. one of the women who works for this organization came to the show last night and shared firsthand experiences/photos from her time in port-au-prince; the work she did was truly remarkable. i know her 'kids' (the students/orphans she taught in haiti) would be so grateful if you donated funds to help rebuild their school.